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The competitiveness, Bonnie says, comes from people comparing the Aussie pop-punks to other bands, which “can make you feel like you have to be better than X, Y or Z”. I hate ! It’s so stupidly competitive and I was just throwing a tantrum, basically. “I just felt like I couldn’t really trust anyone. “I didn’t know what to believe – people were telling me good things just because they want to make something from me? I was like, ‘I don’t even know if you’re being real right now because you make money off me…’” she says. “I was so sick of seeing all the fake crap,” she explains, “but then I also fell into the trap of believing it and thinking that’s what everyone wanted from me.”Īnd it wasn’t just fan opinions that troubled her, Bonnie wasn't even sure she could trust those of the band's inner circle. While perhaps not the healthiest pastime, it did blow the cobwebs out (figuratively speaking) and inspired two new songs: Van Gogh (because she felt like the only way to silence people’s opinions was to cut her ears off) and Dumb (because buying into people’s comments left her feeling just that). And the only distraction for the most part was her phone, on which she’d sit furiously scrolling through the band’s negative social media comments, often for hours at a time. I felt like someone had just shot me in the back.”Īcknowledging how dramatic that sounds, Bonnie says that’s genuinely how she felt. I didn’t want people to be like, ‘How are you?’ Then be like, ‘I’m shit!’ My whole life felt like it was taken away from me I couldn’t do the one thing I love to do. “I didn’t want anyone to look at me or talk to me because I didn’t know what to say. “I was just in a fucking hole, man,” she remembers.
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Usually sat in her underwear and holey socks, either on her bed, or with her feet up on the desk, holding her guitar, frustrated at her situation, anxious about the future and unable to write anything.
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Ask Bonnie how many hours a day she spent down there and she’ll say “almost all of them”.